Thursday, January 20, 2011

who I am...

Rather...who AM I? 

As it turns out, there isn't a simple answer for this anymore.  I have to do a speech in my public speaking class, and choose 3 object that represent me in some way, and breifly explain why.  I am finding it REALLY hard to do.  Obviously the Kid is choice 1, and my Tigers bag is a given (we have to pick a bag that is special and means something and represents us in some way and then explain how/why)...I'm finding it hard to find just TWO items that represent me...

It shouldn't be THAT hard should it!?!? 

I'm more than a mom and a Tigers fan......
aren't I?????

I've narrowed it down to a journal for one of the two items left, because it helps me vent, and I love writing, i believe in the art of the written word (HELLLOOOOO English Teacher in the works here!! lol)...etc...

I'm finding it super hard to find a third item that represents me...I initially thought about flip flops and doig a summer theme, but the Tigers bag will do that already and we can't have an item represent more than one "thing"...

WHY is it this hard!?...

What do you think would be three things that represent you???

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

it makes me want a hotdog real bad

I definately don't want a hot dog...but everytime I want something really bad it makes me think of that quote from Legally Blonde...2 I think?
and I want to watch a baseball game...real bad! lol  Ohhhh speaking of...they just showed some signing news of the Tigers on the news!!!!! I'm so effing excited!!!!

well I finaly got a hold of my lawyer and for a small ($500) fee...he's cancelling the withdrawl.  which would NOT have cancelled the divorce...just would have messed up a few things up in the end.

ugh....its allllll sssssoooo frustrating!!!!  and of course D had to call and fight with me over it all (they sent him a copy of the court date).  In the process of fighting D still can't keep his story straight about why he left, if HE was going to file for divorce, why he took Kid like/when he did,what he was expecting out of it all...and most crappiest of all...when he stopped loving me.  mind you he told me back in Nov that he still loved me, was just over the relationship...now he's saying that he stopped loving me before he even left...just led me on for another 3 months...it's hurtful...but I know that he's just saying all this crap to hurt me because its the only way he can hurt me now.  the only other way is through Kid...but then he has to deal with the court so he won't do that.  whatever...I'm over who he has become and I'm finally to the point where I'm not mourning who he WAS anymore...just what I wanted and dreamed of havging with him and trying to figure out how that all has to change now.  I really wanted my son to know what a family was...I know we still have a family but it's not what I had in mind...so I'm now trying to figure out how it all looks now and what i want out of life and for Kid now.

Anyway...I'm ssssoooooo glad I found the doctor I have right now!!!  I got in to see him today because I needed a couple refills on some prescriptions, but I also neede2d to talk to him about some of my concerns over the PCOS and some other things that I have going on and am concerned about...and he is amazingly one step ahead of me...okay so like 1/2 a step really.  I've been having severe hip pain and pain in my shoulder, elbow and wrist and am concerned because its affecting my ability to life the Kid properly among other heavy items! He immediately brough up Rheumatoid Arthritis (RA) and Lupus...the exact two things I was goilng to ask him if I should be worried about!!  So I have to go back this week for blood work (didnt have time today as my dad had Kid at Walmart and they were waiting on me lol)...so hopefully we'll get some answers out of this.

In other news...the new quaryter of classes started yesterday...and both my teachers took evvvvvveeeeerrrryyyyyy second of each class.  Which I understand...we're paying a LOT of money for these classes we should get every bit of info out of them that we can...but gggggggooooooooooooddddd LORD am I ready to go home !! My forst class is at 1pm...my second class gets out at 940pm...holy long day!! especially sitting on crappy chairs and hurting my hips! wow.  but my first class is public speaking...definately goilng to be fun! I already had a chance to make an ass of myself...which if you know anything about me doesnt surprise you at ALL! lol.

speaking off...I have like...5,000 pages of reading to do...okay so like 500....*sigh*

(and I still want to watch a baseball game real bad!)