things that make you go...ooops?

(Ooops...as in I haven't update in such a long time!)
well yet again it's been a VERY long time since I've updated this.  Let's be clear that this by no means that I'm not journaling, or venting, or not super uper duper shmuper busy. :)

I've been so busy with school lately that I've been neglecting things, and while those things do include my journal (both here and my tangible "real" one) I've been downloading a lot lately in an attempt to clear my head, which unfortunately hasn't been helping.  I think just because I have SO much going on and SO much to think through, process through, figure out, work out, make sense of, etc. 

I don't think I have any loyal readers or anything, but I admit that I do sometimes click randomly through blogs and hate when there hasn't been an update in months.  Especially when I get interested in something that was written about, or even the style of writing.

I started this blog as a way to vent.  Writing in a journal or diary (to me diary makes it sound like I'm 8 years old and am writing about nothing but my cat's play habits and what I had for lunch though...)  There are some times in my life that though I don't feel like explaining the entire situation to people anymore, sometimes you need an outside perspective on things...and sometimes you just feel like you KNOW that there are people in the world going through similar situations and if you can tell them how you're handling it all, maybe just maybe you can give them a way to handle their situation that maybe they didn't think about before, or have never explored, or even a way that they've heard of before but never tried.

That is part of the reason why I feel like I need to write a book...one day.  I've always been a writer and always wanted to write, but I always thought that it would be fiction.  I never dreamed until this past year, that I would be write in a non-fiction way.  I kind of like it though.  It's fun, and when you think about it, you can still make up whatever the crap you want and have it be true as long as you claim it is your opinion! LOL
I am struggling with the direction a book would take right now.  If it would be a story about my journey and be more like a biography...or if it would be more like a self help "if you find yourself in this position you can try this" type of book.  I don't know.  In the end I guess it doesn't matter, as long as it's written.  God will sort it all out in the end.  Anyway- I felt the need to write and figured this was the best spot to do it at this particular moment in time.